Life’s a game but it’s not fair I break the rules so I don’t care So I keep doing my own thing Walking tall against the rain Victory’s within the mile Almost there don’t give up now
The lessons I learned from my boyfriends
Brendan- Don’t date guys whose friends hate me.
Dylan- It isn’t always my fault. He might be screwing me over like Kimbra in ‘Somebody That I Used To Know’.
Blaine- Watch out for desperate needy guys.
Jordan- Most guys wanna hook up with me.
Now that I’ve learned these lessons, I’ve been able to learn some things. Like how to handle guys better and that I just am not cut out for a serious relationship. And I’m a lot happier about it than I used to be. Just have fun!
Things bugging me
I don’t know how to put this into words for talking to people. Sorry.
1. I feel like I’m the only one who never looks forward to summer. I always dread it because I don’t get to hang out with my friends ever. I’m always stuck at home or in Utah with my family. I hate hanging out with my family. So if my mom decides not to go to Utah for the summer, it’s going to be long and boring.
2. Guys are so easy to understand until you start liking them. For example, I don’t know of Ryan really likes me or not. We don’t text very often, but we’re both busy too. He comes to talk to me when he sees me in the halls. He also asked if I would come play sand volleyball with him sometime, but never a definite day. I’m so confused. This is why I try to avoid liking a guy. Ugh 😲🔫
I need someone to talk to, but no one is left. So I’m back here on tumblr.
I have no one to talk to when I need someone anymore. Everyone moved or I can’t talk to them. I can’t trust anyone at work. I can’t talk to my best friend. He doesn’t care. Hmm. Some best friend. We have such an odd relationship. Whatever. And all my other best friend does is talk about how much she hates everyone and loves her boyfriend and her car. I’m tired of hearing it.
I feel so alone in this world. Alone and stupid and talentless. I can’t think of what to do for my fucking deck of cards project. I can’t draw anyhow, so it’s gonna suck. Why did I take two art classes? Because I’m an idiot.
I hate work. I don’t fit in anywhere at work. And I’m tired of being stuck in the middle between manager and team member because I don’t fit in with either.
I just wish someone me. No guys loves me. I’m just that stupid whore that is never going to get a serious guy. It’s not because I’m not committed. I’m just trying to kid myself.
I wish I could die.
I’m so sick of it all. I’m sick of creeps asking me out. Don’t ask me out if you just got out of jail, please. I’m so sick of my sister and mom. Bitch, shut the fuck up. I’m so sick of the Hunger Games. It’s just the latest fad. I’m sick of most girls at school. I’m not a whore, thank you very much. I’m sick of being in love with someone who will never love me back. I hate myself. I fucking hate myself.